May 4th 2026

 With my litle ones now getting older.

I question my slef, and think about the way that i have been teachibng them.

Now in my 40's and with so many underline health issuess, i am hoping that i am able to but down a stong foundation for my children.

It is not like thay do not know loss or the mewaning of the word, espicall with them lossing their grandfather at quite a young age.

When I ask them about him they all have wome memory of him, no matter how small.

With only one living grandparend left and a great grandparent, they know that death is just around the coner no matter how old ou are.

That death is just aprt of living.

Yet I still ask myslef is knowing and understanding what death really means, the dame thing?

After all no matter how planed you are for you D-Day it is the same like being born and will not stick to a key time or day.

It wil just happen.

This year is the 20th Year since both my dad and gerandmother passed in the same year and no one excpected this to happen or was perpared for it either.

Now 20 years on o am still sorting out my past, tring to live for now and plan for...

So at this moment in time none of my children are at an age where they would beavle to be an adult, so if over the next 10 years something did happen to me.

The big question one would ask is what would happen to m children??